Film School loving, PS3 hating, Neck pulling Son of a Bitch!

What up y'all-


Been doing some things and stuff the last week or so, so I haven't posted anything new. I'm planning on going to film school in the next few months to learn how to be a filmmaker. I don't know if I mentioned that already, but I'm gonna write it again, so fuck you.

I played through and beat God Of War 3, and I loved it. I have been a big fan of the series since day one, but I will admit I am a PS3 Hater. It's not like I don't have one or anything, but the thing is there aren't enough really great titles for the platform. Sure, God of War 3, Uncharted 2, and Metal Gear Solid 4 are all great, but that's only like 3 titles. Most everything is multiplatform now, so why get it on anything but Xbox 360? I'm an achievement whore anyway, and for every good PS3 title, I have 4 good X360 ones. It's like a blu-ray player that plays games... not to say I don't like Blu-rays, but I have like 30 of those compared to 6 Ps3 games and 25 X360 ones.

But enough nerdy gamer talk bullshit, I'm here to talk about me!

I pulled a muscle in my neck the other day, and it is fucking uncomfortable and painful. Believe me when I say, I'll be out for at least a week. I can't even lie on a pillow without feeling some kind of weird thing. My roommate said I should just put it out of my mind, and it will heal on it's own. I'm just concerned because my back is already screwed up. I'm gonna have to see a chiropractor soon...

Until next time, this is your captain, signing out!

- H

Confidence Builder

Howdy y'all,


I'm looking for Film Schools in the LA area (near where I live), and I can't help but realize that I have gained some self confidence. I just started going to therapy, and I've been telling them everything. I am a pretty open person when it comes down to it, and I've had to edit some things the last few years due to circumstances, but no longer. I'm sick and tired of being limited and told by people to do specific things, and go a specific direction. I know what I want, I've always known, but I was too scared to take it. Truth is, it's hard when people tell you you shouldn't do what you want, and should try for something else.

A few years back, I told someone I wanted to be a filmmaker, and they said that it was unrealistic for me to think that I could accomplish my goal. Even though I was nice to this person, they kept attacking me verbally, saying that I should set my bar lower, and try something else. It took me years to get over this, I felt destroyed. It was like I was in a castle with high walls, and this person came over with a ladder, climbed over, and killed all the guards in my kingdom. It invaded my thoughts for a long time.

I finally found someone, or something, that is on my side, and cares enough to tell me that everyone is full of shit, and that I have the power to do anything I want with my life, regardless of the consequences, and what other people think. I guess I'm not so defenseless as I once thought. I know now that my life is waiting for me. All I have to do now is take it.


- H

The Tormented Beast

Here's a little poem I wrote a few minutes ago, hope you enjoy.

Tormented from the inside out

One ceases to believe that all before him

Is not possible

The limits of potential

Are truly questionable

The sounds of a thousand words

Cannot quench the thirst of the beast within

It tries to come out

To be like one of the normal people

But alas, it has no chance

It’s uniqueness ultimately holds precedence

Most absolute, a diamond in the rough

A single light in a hollow cave

Can one survive such ceaseless punishment?

Or is he meant to understand on his own,

What life is worth to him?

Does it eat at him? Does he question his faith?

Does God exist? Is he just another false prophet?

Another liar in a sea of falsifiers?

If truth is so abundant, why is everything a lie?

One must rise above it all to appreciate it’s awe

The beast within knows not where he is

Or rather he refuses to believe

That his destiny has come for him yet

Does he stay neutral? Does he submit to chaos?

One feels acceptance is not an option

Though it is the correct course of action

Change is necessary, as in all things

His thoughts turn to what might be

Or what might not

The lack of positivity and motivation

Drives him to do better

To prove that he is not a beast

But a man, in an altruistic society

Trying to show that he is more than

Just a shell

“Lay down your arms!” they say to him,

Submit and all will come to pass

The beast refuses to believe this

He sees the righteous path before him,

Now is the time for action

What does he choose?

Hey

You've stumbled across my blog. I'll be updating this page with poetry, thoughts on life, and cool stuff.

A little about myself:

I am a huge music/movie/videogame fan

I was an intern on a television show in 2004 and a game tester in 2009

I love to write, and I hope to become a filmmaker one day

I don't put up with other people's shit


I hope you enjoy my blog!

- H