Confidence Builder

Howdy y'all,


I'm looking for Film Schools in the LA area (near where I live), and I can't help but realize that I have gained some self confidence. I just started going to therapy, and I've been telling them everything. I am a pretty open person when it comes down to it, and I've had to edit some things the last few years due to circumstances, but no longer. I'm sick and tired of being limited and told by people to do specific things, and go a specific direction. I know what I want, I've always known, but I was too scared to take it. Truth is, it's hard when people tell you you shouldn't do what you want, and should try for something else.

A few years back, I told someone I wanted to be a filmmaker, and they said that it was unrealistic for me to think that I could accomplish my goal. Even though I was nice to this person, they kept attacking me verbally, saying that I should set my bar lower, and try something else. It took me years to get over this, I felt destroyed. It was like I was in a castle with high walls, and this person came over with a ladder, climbed over, and killed all the guards in my kingdom. It invaded my thoughts for a long time.

I finally found someone, or something, that is on my side, and cares enough to tell me that everyone is full of shit, and that I have the power to do anything I want with my life, regardless of the consequences, and what other people think. I guess I'm not so defenseless as I once thought. I know now that my life is waiting for me. All I have to do now is take it.


- H